CAWD-763 Even though I’m already 23, I have such a baby face that I was made to model junior swimwear, which is even more embarrassing than being completely naked… Hinata Natsu

I got a job at an apparel company.I wanted to work on a brand for stylish women, butI was assigned to a children’s swimwear line instead.

One day, the junior model canceled at the last minute.The photographer, who had been getting increasingly irritated while waiting, said,Hina-chan, you’re petite too, so why don’t you model for us?

It was an outrageous suggestion. There was no way I could do it… but my boss said,We can’t afford to upset him any more, so could you help us out?We’ll pay a model fee… please! I’m begging you!I’d already spent quite a bit of money this month… and if I could get paid for it…

Just wearing children’s swimwear was embarrassing enough,and being photographed by a cameramanwhile being stared at by a crowd of adults felt humiliating…Wait, the swimsuit is wet… oh no.

The photographer noticed I was getting flustered,and once we were alone, he immediately started coming on to me.He wanted me while I was wearing junior swimwear.Even though I felt uneasy, I couldn’t fully refuse and ended up going along with it…

I awakened to a need for approval.Even though I wasn’t allowed to have a side job, I tried working as a photo model.The feeling of being objectified by older men’s lewd gazes became addictive.

But then my company found out about my side job, and I thought I’d be fired…Instead, they kept it secret and invited me to a gathering of men who loved young-looking girls.While wearing junior swimwear, I was taken advantage of by those men…

Just because I have a baby face and am short…I’m 23 years old… what am I even doing…And yet, there’s still a part of me that wants to be wanted more.

Accepting this strange fate, day after day,I’m being doted on by older men who adore youthful looks.